One: The realization

One day, something hits you but you don't know what... just that something feels weird, different and awfully strange... Something's off.

So, you repress and ignore it (because that's your natural reaction when something uncomfortable occurs). But it comes back, and this time a little bit stronger, so you repress it again like a champ.

Then one day, possibly a few weeks or even a few months later, you pick up a pen to write a story about your most recent vacation or recipe you've tried, and it all flows out.

When you read it over you realize that it has nothing to do with your trip to Puerto Vallarta or the guacamole you made... but instead, it's a complete confession... to yourself.

You read the words back and you can hear yourself screaming, because along with everything else, you've repressed who you truly are.

Not okay.

But now, your eyes are wide open (for real this time), and that holy shit moment hits you smack dab in the face... because you can finally see.



'From behind the curtain' is a series aimed to expose the truth that we often hide or are too embarrassed to share. Here I will write about my journey(s) through anxiety, depression, self esteem and body image issues. These are some of the struggles I have faced throughout my lifetime and it doesn't feel right to remain quiet about it. Writing and sharing these intimate stories with you... This, is my therapy.